sad

no post again today (apart from the one below i mean) as today i feel sad after returning from a meeting. it was a meeting to celebrate the 70 years anniversary of the society of st vincent de paul. i was suppose to be the chairperson of the sub-committee but looks like i was not when someone else seems to be taking over. i had prepared some prayers and songs but all of them (save for one) were not used. i was hurt. hurt what i prepared were not used (save for one). hurt they have no trust/confidence in me. someone had nominated me to lead in the mass but a few of the others seems to have no confidence in me… that i would not do a good job. hurt. unhappy that it seems what a ‘top person’ suggested, goes. what ‘someone’ said, others seems to agree with that person (but not me since i’m a small fry). in the end i had to take up a ‘no importance, behind the scene’ job – typing and preparing the booklet!

the world is not fair.

perhaps it’s better i remain in my cocoon (comfort zone) and not offer to help. that way i will avoid being hurt.

🙁